Stuck in the Muck

I remember reading the reviews for Swamplandia! earlier this year, and I was so excited about it I decided I HAD to buy it on its release day. Then it sat. The other day I noticed that the paperback version is now out and I still haven’t read my hardback that I just HAD to have, and that drives me crazy! So, I picked it up last Wednesday and now I am only on page 59. Almost a week and only 59 pages!  I read a 1000 page book the week before. I have read a few paragraphs every day instead of my usual few chapters.

The real issue is that I don't know what it is that is holding me back. It is an original story and it is well written. Truthfully, I think I just can't take any more mothers dying of cancer and leaving their children behind to face the world unguided. I know it happens; chances are good it will happen to me and the realization of that is heart wrenching. It stops my breath and makes my heart ache. Both my son and my husband turned a year older this weekend so maybe I am just super aware and sensitive to time passing and things changing right now, not to mention busy trying to make everyone feel celebrated, to also be reading a book about an entire family’s upheaval. 

Anyway, I feel bogged down by the swamp, but hopefully I will be able to scrape myself out of it and enjoy myself again.